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New job nerves

27 July, 2016

It’s been nearly two weeks since I left the job I had been doing for the last ten years. In the end I was sad to go, even though I had been hating it for about the last six of those years, because there were some people there I actually liked. Not many of them, and none of them were I my immediate team, but nevertheless there are some I will miss. Plus of course I am ridiculously insecure and stepping away from a job I knew backwards was an enormous leap outside of my very narrow comfort zone. It’s an industry I haven’t worked in before, in fact it’s public sector which is also something new, the role and the job title are things which I have no experience of, and the many different IT systems I will need to train on are all new to me. I was amazed I even got an interview, never mind the job – which has the word “senior” at the front of the title, despite me knowing virtually nothing about how to do it – so yeah, you could say I was feeling a bit nervous.

It also happens that last week when I started was one of the busiest weeks of the year so nobody really had any time to show me very much, and my boss works over 200 miles away and I won’t see her till next week, so I am on my own, reading as many procedural documents and manuals as I can, familiarising myself with software layouts and data tables, whilst trying to remember everyone’s names, the geography of a building that everyone says takes months to really understand, and desperately looking not completely blank when anyone asks me anything at all. I had leave already booked over the weekend so I have worked exactly five days but I do feel it is starting to make some sort of sense.

My new boss’s boss said, when I met her, that it would take anything up to six months to get up to speed, so I am clinging to that to prevent me stressing, and it is working. I was copied in an email by way of introducing me to a colleague, with a note saying I was new so wouldn’t be able to offer any solid guidance or advice “for a few months”. In a strange way, I found this reassuring. Yes I am “senior” and yes I got a massive pay rise with the job, but it is understood that I need to bed in. They knew this from the moment they read my CV, knew this from the answers I gave at interview, but they still had enough faith to take me on.

I need to learn to also have that faith in me.

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4 Comments
  1. All experience is good experience – just be yourself – you obviously have something they need and were the best candidate! Yes have faith in yourself.

    • thanks for reading and commenting… tbh this was just a brain dump more than a post and i didnt really expect anyone to read it. It is very unlike me to have faith in me, but for once – underneath thet nerves – i do. i know i can do this.

  2. You are going to do great! How do I know it’s? Because you have courage. Courage comes first. Confidence comes later. Be encouraged.

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